self realization

ew i hate reviewing myself but lately i have been ... self evaluation in a way ... its not very pleasant.. you know i've realized that i dont have a group of people who are my people ... like you know how "Friends" is... they are a group of people who are each others people. I DONT HAVE THAT. i mean i have my person (excerpt from grey's) ... and she knows who she is.. LOL and then i have no one else ... ok i had two people... now one is gone and it feels like i have no one else becuz my person found their person and then it leaves me with no person anymore... IF THAT EVEN MAKES SENSE oki newais main points
self realization fact 1 : I am a loner
self realization fact 2 : I rely too much on other people and when they are gone i am no one o.0
self realization fact 3 : I need a life.
OKI they all revolve around the fact that i have no one and i need people to make me happy o.0 but then who doesn't right ... but yeah its so sad ... i find it sad.. i never knew how lonely i was until everyone else moved on and im like left behind... never make someone your everything, because when that someone is gone, you end up with nothing. i never knew how true that was... i made someone my everything and now ... i feel lonely... and empty... odd... i actually thought of myself as having a larger social group but ... apparently i do not... hummm yeah this sux ... lol now im finding myself trying to find a new group of people... it's not working ... i hm it's funny when i discussed this with iqra lol its still funny now xp ... dude self realization sux and only re-evaluate urself when u need to... ughhh