=]

waiting...
eyes wander the surrounding area
hmph
no where to be found
hopeless
oh a glance...
confidence builds
oh a stare...
butterflies appear
oh a smile...
just returning the favour
hehe a good feeling indeed

self realization

ew i hate reviewing myself but lately i have been ... self evaluation in a way ... its not very pleasant.. you know i've realized that i dont have a group of people who are my people ... like you know how "Friends" is... they are a group of people who are each others people. I DONT HAVE THAT. i mean i have my person (excerpt from grey's) ... and she knows who she is.. LOL and then i have no one else ... ok i had two people... now one is gone and it feels like i have no one else becuz my person found their person and then it leaves me with no person anymore... IF THAT EVEN MAKES SENSE oki newais main points
self realization fact 1 : I am a loner
self realization fact 2 : I rely too much on other people and when they are gone i am no one o.0
self realization fact 3 : I need a life.
OKI they all revolve around the fact that i have no one and i need people to make me happy o.0 but then who doesn't right ... but yeah its so sad ... i find it sad.. i never knew how lonely i was until everyone else moved on and im like left behind... never make someone your everything, because when that someone is gone, you end up with nothing. i never knew how true that was... i made someone my everything and now ... i feel lonely... and empty... odd... i actually thought of myself as having a larger social group but ... apparently i do not... hummm yeah this sux ... lol now im finding myself trying to find a new group of people... it's not working ... i hm it's funny when i discussed this with iqra lol its still funny now xp ... dude self realization sux and only re-evaluate urself when u need to... ughhh

Time to chillax =]

need major chillage time ^^ stress over i can relax cuz this semester is over chiki chiki yeah yeah xp



oh mahn the quarrels of never-ending words that attack me head gah
sleeeep how our long awaited meeting shall finally be complete ;]

OH EM GEE

double u tee eff

I have an exam tmr and yet i feel the need to stay on this blogger site ... I PRAY TO GOD that i'll be ready for tmr... ='[ oh em gee...

falling short of intelligence and time ... shud i study now? ...

ugh

unspeakable words come to pass
as the cry of the heart fades
numbness spreads its calamity
and the soul withers away

no emotions no love
no reason no sanity
no reconciliation
of dignity

passed the point
of no return
leaves only running
to the one yearned

chasing whats not really there
hoping of that if or just maybe
can complete the other half
of what i used to be

Ad

Fake Beauty is reality

True Beauty is just a dream.

quagmire lines

Funny and entertaining =] only from quagmire ^^ (only some... my brother has a poster up and these are the ones i remember most)

I need someone really bad. Are you really bad?

If i said you had a beautiful body, would you hold it against me?

Can i get some fries to go with that shake?

Beauty is only a light switch away

oh! sorry i thought that was a braille name tag

Hi im mr right someone said you were looking for me

Is that dress felt? would you like it to be?

Realize

Hear the unspeakable
See the inevitable
Touch the forbidden
Love the forgotten

unsatisfied

inattentive and completely bored

the numbers which follow on text wallow

the zombie like creature sitting infront of the monitor

looks and turns away

math for another day

but then again exam is not ok

script writing

The It Girl

Chp 11

Easy Walsh played by Zac Efron

Jenny Humphrey played by Taylor Momsen

Callie Vernon played by Kristen Bell

Act 2 scene 5

Script

A drunken couple stumbles into the hallway and heads to the dorm. Inside, two beds sit parallel from each other. One is occupied while the other is empty. Standing in front of the door, the couple is Soon going to "make use" of the empty bed.

Callie

Well you stink like vodka. Ew.

Easy

I love it when you say i smell.

Callie

Ssh. Pardee will hear.

[Opens the door to her dorm]

Jenny

[Aside] Oh my God. It's Callie and Easy. Oh my God. Someone save me now. [Covers her eyes and continues to pretend to sleep]

Easy

Are you sure no one else is here?

Callie

Do you see anyone here?

Easy

Well its dark isn't it?

Callie

... [Glares] Top drawer.

Easy

[Reaches for the box of condoms but tumbles everything else over, the lamp is now shining on Jenny's back.] OH MY GOD JENNY?

Jenny

AHH! [Staring at him]

Easy

I thought you said no one else was here.

Callie

This is ridiculous. [Grabs her robe and walks out]

Easy

Sorry Jenny. I didn't know you were Callie's room mate. [Sitting on Callie’s bed]

Jenny

Uhm [staring at his half naked body]

Easy

[Walks over and sits on Jenny’s bed.] Look the seven sisters! [Pointing at the window]

Jenny

Huh

Easy

The constellation. [Laying his hand on her back]

Jenny

... Oh

Easy

Didn't mean to make you uncomfortable

Jenny

No problem [her face turning red]

Easy

You can stop hiding. I'm a decent guy.

Enters Mr.Pardee.

Easy

Dude. I was never here. [Pulling his pants up and grabbing his shirt]

Mr.Pardee

You weren't? ... What?

Easy

You don't see me [walking passed him]

Pardee

Easy, I do see you

Easy

Nope. I was never hear [dashing to the exit to the stair case]

Mr.Pardee

Where are you going? I'm going to report you anyways. [Turning to Jenny] Now for you. What was Easy Walsh doing inside a girl's dorm? It is not permitted. I have to send you off to the office tomorrow morning. Talk to them about it.

Jenny

NO... please don't!

Mr.Pardee

This is not good. [Stares at the condoms on the floor] A lot of explaining to do.

Callie

What's going here [walks back into the room]

Jenny

Please sir! I can...

Callie

Hello? Can someone tell me what’s going on here?

Mr.Pardee

Where were you?

Callie

I just got back from the library and changed in the washroom.

Mr.Pardee

Oh alright. Well Easy was here.

Callie

EASY?! [Staring at Jenny]

Jenny

Oh uhm. Yeah Easy was here.

Callie

Excuse us Mr.Pardee. We need to talk alone.

Mr.Pardee

Go to sleep girls. I mean it. [He exits]

guerillaaaaa poetry

Misplaced

Slowly fading into the dark resonating shadow

Silently standing alone trying to fathom

Scrutinizing the lingering souls passing by

Unable to conceive their point of life.